Fairy Tales

Just finished Shrek series lately... Cartoons and Animations, they just one of my favourites.. I didn't get to watch them in the cinema, so I just download all of them and watch one by one during this lonely Christmas.. Seeing the progress of a green Ogre embarked on journey all the way to raising his children.. It's just so similar to our life no? Just that the last episode seems so similar to what I have encountered.. The linkage may not be obvious but I just feel it so deeply..

He gave up his good life when he signed the deal.. Hoping to have some changes in his life.. Well basically I did the same thing.. I was hoping to have some changes in life since both of us were not heading the same way.. We both regretted a decision which has affected the rest of our lives.. The difference is that he's able to rectify the problem and I am not.. I will never be able to undo the damage.. There's just no happily ever after in real life.. There will be more ups and downs coming, just bracing oneself to face it.. Luckily we both learnt our lessons.. The costs is just too high, that I have never able to pay them...

As days go by, I'll try to look back for some of all time favourite.. Toy Story, Pocahontas, Finding Nemo, Happy Feet... I just love them and miss them...
It's not the fairy tales which fulfil my desire, but the positive lessons behind the all those fairy tales.. Fairy tales may not exist in reality, but this doesn't mean that we should stop hoping..

冬至快乐

Suddenly I recall her singing this song before, as she's following the rhythm from the radio in my car... I can recall the singing, the voice... 任时光匆匆流去，我只在乎你...



Just part of good old memories..
Hope everyone enjoys 汤圆 like I do..
It's not my favourite dessert, but it carries a deep meaning of reunion..

All well ends well.. Brush teeth gently to reduce chances of gum bleeding..

Worthless Fool

It should end by now.. It should be a glamorous banquet, with a pair of lovely couple set to converge their paths, devoting their precious to each other.. Till death do them apart..Unfortunately I am not there to witness the ceremony.. I can only wish them through the phone..

But I am still glad.. Glad that she's there.. Glad that those who were supposed to be there are all there.. Glad that she's willing to foster back the family ties.. Hope she's continuing that.. I think I have just shorten my life by 5 years, and it's all worth it... Call me an idiot, for having such thought.. I know any sacrifice I make will not be known or appreciated, and too late for that.. All I hope is that she can live well, knowing that those who love her really care for her... I'd also wish that her health condition improves, with gastric staying far far away from her.. Wish her to be happy with him, hoping that he will treasure her well,, as I know I don't deserve her..

I have tried to search for the infoseum.. Apparently it's a mission impossible since at least 35 pax are needed for the visit and it's only open for tour visits... I have absolutely no idea on how to find that amount of people who would be interested for such visit.. Feel so useless, like a loser who just give up anything when facing with obstacle.. At least I know I have done a good deed if I were able to give up some of my life in order to change one's life... I knew I've sacrificed for a purpose.. Not a worthless fool

Stardust

Just found this song on youtube. Like it the first time I heard it..
It's a perfect song for a sunday night like this, a slow rhythm...
Coincidentally the title matches with the movie we watched before we were together..
Now it's bringing back a lot of joyful memories, to tell me that how I still miss her..
And how I miss the wedding, where I shouldn't be here, if that incident didn't happen..

Translated lyrics :

When you look in the sky the stars at night blowing ohdeon
Blue moon, the green forest, green your breath.
Full of empty summer sky constellations
Colorful light-filled galaxy of fine
Brilliant, we

More than a shining star Your eyes dreaming
More than a word can said a moment right now

Run baby run deep night fly,
Proverbs sad, sad dream, sad tears goodbye
Silver waves back into the sea of stars
Maeumkkeot a sweet whale
We are winning

A little more, I want to hear your song.
More One more night with you, the stars that sedeon
The sky over

Blood+

Still trying to start something..

Went to donate blood near the office today...

Ya, after 26 years of life, it's the 1st time I donated blood.. It's not something special to many, but I guess it's my way of telling myself to try new things.. Something which is fresh and yet beneficial..

I was a little nervous in the beginning, but I've been through worse, just a little jab, wouldn't harm..

Was tagged by my colleague that my boss went to donate blood, "What's the big deal?"

I don't know why but somehow I was so obedient for the past that I never donated blood after my dad told me not to. There was a saying that "发肤受之于父母". I decided to ignore that teaching and went to donate blood for the greater good, as not only it benefits the recipient, but it's good for me physically and emotionally.. Makes me feel that I've done a little more for this world.. I guess, I am still continuing my egalitarian view on this world..

After 26 years, now only I realise which blood type do I belong to.. It doesn't matter anyway. Was given a red book so that I can donate more in the future.. Ya I should do this again, every 3 months at most.. 450cc seems just normal for me.. No pain, no dizziness, and I feel that I can do a little more, perhaps 500 to 600.. I felt satisfied when I saw my pack of blood, being full and compact, taken into storage carefully.. Cerficate, biscuits, all these just didn't mean much. I just want to let myself know that I have my past, I should not let it drag me, and I am solidifying my present, to make up a future.. And I hope to deliver this message to her that we must not forget where we come from.. Let go of the past and embrace the love from others, those who love and care will always accept who we are... 血浓于水

Total Boredom

It's another boring month..

Saving money for many things..

It's just that I feel a little lost,

with the purpose of doing those savings,

when I can't share with the love one..

Been in contact with a few friends.

It's been years since we met each other,

maybe I should've done that way earlier,

but I only delayed my plan till the aftermath..

The brother is getting married,

Unfortunately I cannot attend the wedding due to my uncleared identity..

Anywayz, I will still do what I am suppose to do..

Aunt said nobody would look after Stitch when she's not around..

I offered to keep him for a couple of days with me, or me with him..

This little fella is still going strong, sometimes I just wonder what's inside his mind...

It's good that the aunt is taking care of him well, though he's freedom is still very much restricted.. I told myself that I'd be taking him out, I guess I am still delaying that plan.. Until I really have some time and some place for him..

I think I am too bored that I posted this, don't feel like posting but I still posted, for the sake of posting... Maybe the boredom of staying in a room for 1 whole day just makes me feel that I should update my blog more often.. And the last thing which appears on my mind..

Congratulations Steven, wish you and Erlin,

执子之手，白头偕老..

My best wish to both of them..

I hope she watches it

If it would shorten 5 years of my life for her to understand the importance of family,

I would rather to live 5 years shorter...

This is like cursing myself but what the hell, it's all worth it if she could understand the message being delivered and take one step..

Left

I think I made the right decision...

Or not...