Initially, Love is....

Initially, love is easy.
Initially, love is simple.
Initially, love is between 2 persons..

As love entrenches and grows, it starts to become complicated,
love doesn't belong to just two of the loves anymore,
Many are dragged into this relationship, whether intended or unintended..

First would be friends. Best fren would know first, followed by congratulations from the rest, with a few mocking moments of course. There would also those who do not wish to bless the relationship. Skip those having red eyes, guy would start meeting girl's friends and vice versa. Ocasionally disputes arise between these two and best friends of both sides hop in and listen to each's problems and complaints, and hopefully able to solve them without being said as busybodies.

Next family comes in, some tried to hide from knowledge of parents. It works for those who don't really live with families. But parents eventually would find out, from the increase in increase in phone bills, fuel expenses, frequency of outing and yada yada....

So some choose to inform their parents, hoping of blessings from parents too. For those who fail that, it would be doubly hard for this relationship to continue. Hence some would just keep it tight from parents' knowledge. Some keep it in private as they think that relationship is not yet stable, waiting for the relationship to be mature only start telling the old folks. Sooner or later, they tend to forget, and some keep delaying by giving lots of excuses, some go into cold wars as they become speechless.

Not trying to criticise those who don't need acknowlegdement from their old folks. I am not here to judge who's right or who's wrong, everyone has his or her own way of thinking, but do remember that for everyone who's in relationship to think not only in your own shoe, but also this from your counterpart's point. Communication remains the most important tool to maintain relationship and to break down walls . A good communication doesn't come one sided, it comes with respect of both sides who agree on the best decision which would be advantageous to both sides.

At the end of the day, he/she maybe the one who would walk with you through. It's a waste if a relationship goes sour just because of a sandlike problem...

Blog for Blogging

It's almost 4am now I'm still awake to blog.. It's the best time to inspire me to blog..

Life's been good, almost way too good. Great time passes in a blink of an eye. It's been a month plus after my finals and results are out and I've graduated.. Am I motivated enough to find a job? I can see that I'm so unproductive currently while spending money everyday. When you're not earning, you're spending, simple as that. So it's up to me to choose my road now.

I always wanted to graduate asap during college time. It's like I'm 23 and others with same age are already working with same qualification. But right now, it feels so good if I can step back into college and attend lectures waiting for lunch time to get a grip with my friends. Nothing bigger than results and assignment due dates which worry me.

Right now, I'm worried and confused. Economy is really bad with unemployment and retrenchment everywhere. The fear is undeniable. Failure to get employed, to gel with my job, to gel with others keep coming into my head. Felt that I should've just continued with my studies. But do I have the luxury to continue on? Mom's gonna be a senior citizen soon. It's my responsibility to take good care of her, although she's the one taking care of me now. I need motivation too if I'm to further my studies. Asked a couple of friends and they seemed to be indecisive too. Friends' decisions still hold up a big influence on me I guess.

As for relationship part, I've been good to my friends, including those I dislike. Hate that I'm pretending in front of them. But I'm a grown-up now and certain things just can't be done to create unhappiness to others. I try not to hurt people anymore. Maybe keeping a distance seem to be a better solution. I do hope that my relationship with them remain strong, though things aren't simple as they seem. People have their own lives to care for and keeping the bond strong is just merely an alternative compare to keeping their lives going. It happens to me too but there's totally nothing wrong with it. It only made me feel that, time can really fade everything, everything within its path.

In searching for other half, I think I've forgotten what it's like to go after a person you like. It's not as simple as those like I miss u, I want to see anymore. Responsibilities would be a great concern and I don't see that at all in me. Been trying hard to gain it, but seems like I lose it even faster. Maybe I haven't found one I feel brave enough to bear everything up, or I won't be.. It's always good to be single, but the taste of love barely resides in my mind.

Hmm

Wat kind of person am I?
I cannot answer this question at all...

Just feel tat I'm a bad person, inside and outside...
Hurt many ppl, dissapointed many,
Nvr did wat others wanted,
selfish and lazy..

But it's ok...
I'm trying to change...
What I need is still motivation,
not only from myself, but also from friends and family...

To be a better person

Alcoholic

Don't want to be linked to such name but there are times when people become desperate...


Suddenly felt the need to try out some beer sold near my shop. They have many types of imported beer and it's a regret if I don't try this since they randomly import certain brands of beer...

I know this will distant me from my ultimate target, but believe me, I'm never addicted to alcohol. It's always curiosity and affordability which keep me trying new things, and beer appears to be one of them...

What attracts me to this beer is the bear. It always reminds me of the tooth paste as polar bear is used for both manufacturers. They have a superb 12% alcohol level which may sound tempting, but the bitterness is so much more awful than a normal beer, no wonder they put it extras strong there... Compare to Tiger I had in Halo Cafe back in Eng Yee's B'day, the tiger becomes a kitty...

It is imported from Germany and it's a country well known for its beer drinking festival held annually. I thought that the beer they produced would be nice, but in the end it was a suffering 500ml drink. It seems that it's for the hardcore beer drinkers. I do feel a little bit of tipsy as I drink it and blogging due to the gas pumping in fast into my mind... Just not what I would expect from a beer...

Lastly I do realise that I still have a bottle of Bacardi at home. I took another photo of it and the beer to show how passion I am into drinking. Like I said, I'm not an alcoholic. I think that drinking sessions are a good way of closing the gaps among friends, especially the talkative ones after have their heads high. People less defensive and start to unmask themselves after a glass or two as they start to go in depth into their living, and their thoughts over everything... I drink not to let people know that I can drink, but to share what I've learnt from arts of drinks and drinking themselves....

Phase 2

It's been a while since I update my blog.... Been busy with so many things and head's clueless on what to write...

Went to Carrefour with Cindy the other day wanted to buy weighing scale for her. She's very keen to get on diet again. For a moment I thought her determination would last long this time but seemed like I was wrong again as she did NOT go jogging when I called her today. Apparently she's busy with Mr. EX again and gave her the excuse to skip jogging session haha...

Back to main topic, it appears that my current weight is 89.8kg. It's not accurate due to the stupidity of the scale where gender and age are factors when weighing. I've lost only 5kg after exercising for so long.. It maybe very little but it's a milestone cuz if not mistaken I've never been this 'light' after I reached my 20s.

I name this milestone as phase 1 and it's a success. Now phase 2 is commencing the this time it will be another 5kg.. It's not much, and it's still far from initial target of 75kg, but it's better than to be demotivated knowing that I'm still far far away from my ultimate target....

Most importantly, I still need support from you all.. Thank you all...Without ur support I wouldn't go this far, and wouldn't even go futher... Jia You Jia You Jia You ^^

讨好

要讨好别人, 其实不容易, 尤其是面对着不知足的人, 讨好可能变得很费力...

工作上，要讨好就得懂得擦鞋;
感情上，要讨好就需学会牺牲，也就是所谓的重色轻友，简称WH4及WL4;
交际上，要讨好就要去应酬，难听点，可叫做陪坐...

我不会讨好, 也不懂怎么去讨好别人,
只要尽量配合, 这就是最好的讨好,
吃点亏, 没什么大不了,
因为我知道也会有人讨好我,
服从我有的没的要求..

我不想当个只等着被人讨好的人,
令他人盲目的迁就,
增添麻烦， 让人唾弃，
因为， 我...没那么幸福，
也不会拥有，
更不奢求....

如果你是讨好的, 别放弃,
讨好你的人, 总在不远,
若你是被讨好的, 恭喜你,
你找到了贵人, 好好珍惜...

Goong Hei, Giong Hee, Gong Xi, Goong Hee, Tahniah, Congrats...

I know the couples may never realise that people blog about them, but I hope they can sense the sincerity of my wishes through this post... Congratulations on the bonding of Michael Goh and Christina Tham...

I wish that they will live happily ever after, and have found their eternal soul mate, to live on and to fill each others' life with love, passion and honesty...

Congratulations again to the newly weds, do enjoy the honeymoon in Taiwan :D